"ate, this is just between you and me first. See, I'm already 40, I know I'm way too old for these stuffs. But I'm 2 months delayed now, I took a pregnancy test this morning, and it was positive", these was the words my mom told me when I was still in 2nd year highschool.
I really don't now what to say at first. For some point, my emotions were all mixed up. Yes, I was happy, happy in a sense that there would be a new baby in the family, and that, I'm going to be an "ate" for the second time around. But, a part of me is also unhappy. Unhappy in a sense that, the life of my mom would be at risk.
From that day on, we were so attuned with the condition of my mom. I was nervous, honestly. I don't know how to handle such situation. I don't even know what to say to my mom, I don't know what word should I utter just to soothe her whenever her tummy contracts that made her so much in pain.
And as her tummy grows, also was her agony. During her 1st tri, she had spottings, which made me and dad so worried, that even up to using the bathroom, we would accompany her just to be rest assured that she's in safe hand.
Her 1st tri had passed. I thought everything would be back to normal. As she reached her 2nd tri, her 'spottings' became severe. We rushed her to the hospital. And right there and then, my dad and I cried. We asked ourselves, is this the price we ought to take from having a new member of the family? Ten years since the last pregnancy of my mother, and to think, we never thought that it would still be possible. The doctor said, we almost lose our angel (which by the way was a boy). The doctor also added that my mom needs a 2-week bedrest, which means, she has to stop working for the mean time.
Thank God, after this, no more spottings, and no more unusual pain in the tummy of my mom. But little did we know, there is a much bigger problem, that awaits us.
It was May 17, 2005, we were in Zamboanga then, having our annual reunion in my mom's side. I was still in my Aunt's house, while my dad and my 7-month pregnant mom was still at my lolo and lola's house having their breakfast. At 12 noon, I had a phone call coming from my lola, saying, my mom was rushed to the hospital, for she was having another massive bleeding. It took me a minute before those words finally sunk into my seemingly asleep mind.
I was white as a ghost, I couldn't speak a word. They said that the baby was already out from the placenta, and he could have been intoxicated already. When my aunt and I finally reached the hospital, I was relieved that my mom was in good hands and that she had already delivered my baby brother through a Cesarean Section. The doctor said it was really a miracle for my brother to survive at that point in time. I get to see my mom when they transferred her already from the DR to her room.
But what really broke my heart, was when I finally saw my brother. He was as tiny as a bottle of coke (1.5 L). And there were lots of tubes that was inserted to him. I can't even dare to look. He was premature, therefore he needs to be incubated.
For 1 week, me and my family couldn't touch him. We're only allowed to look at him through the windows of the nursery room.
And after, almost 1 month, my brother was finally released from the hospital. And we named him "Terence Cesar".
It was all worth the sacrifices. With Terence, it's like the beginning of all things - wonder, hope, a dream of POSSIBILITIES.
And just so you know, I've added latest pictures of our miracle baby.
(He's fast asleep)
He's about to turn four this May!! ;-)One of his favorite character in TV, Barney.A picture of us three (Me, at the left side, my sister Kakai at the right, and our miracle baby, Terence).
Terence, a sweet new blossom of humanity..